Here I Am

From: After The Rain

I get tired of this website so fast it's sick. I just changed the entire look of every single page on here, and now I'm looking at it a month later and I don't like it. Time to redesign... Lots of fun.

Anyways, work: I was working valet for this guy who didn't pay me any hourly wage and screwed me over several times in a row with crappy jobs where I didn't make any money. So I started working for a valet company that managed parking for the Marriott Waterside in Tampa. I guess it is the only four star hotel in Tampa, but unfortunately, that doesn't mean that people who stay there tip any better. Yeah, but that job sucked because I was only getting paid $2 an hour for 9 hour days, and it was obvious after a couple days that it was totally not worth my even being there. But I wanted to hang onto that job until I got something else, just because I didn't want to be completely broke, and even though it wasn't much, I would at least have enough money to eat and put gas in my car on the days that I worked. Unfortunately, I ended up spraining my knee one night at work. My leg had been getting progressively more and more sore throughout the week, but the last night, it was terrible. So I haven't been working there for about a week.

Last week though, I got a call about an interview that I had been on with a Florida state agency. I got the job and I'm starting on the 29th, which is less than a week away now, but it's driving me crazy not having anything to do in the meantime. I don't want to spend money I don't really have, so I end up sitting at home all day until boredom sets in. But I'm excited about starting this job, I'm gonna have my own office, and work with cool people, and get paid quite well. :)

So Thanksgiving is Thursday, and it's kinda wierd, cuz I won't be able to go home or be with my family. Thanksgiving isn't a major holiday for me, so I'm not too concerned, but I guess it's gonna be a practice run for Christmas, because I won't get my first real paycheck until right before Christmas and I'll have to spend it on other things this year. I won't be able to get a plane ticket. But right now, I think I'm planning on visiting in the spring. I don't know how it's gonna work, but I'll probably go up for some holiday and spend a couple days in Pittsburgh and a couple in Meadville. That's the plan at least.

From: After The Rain

OK, so I live in St. Petersburg now. I'm gonna be here for a while though, I'm totally done with moving for a while. I was actually back in Pennsylvania for most of September, which wasn't too exciting. I did go to Pittsburgh once to hang out with Walter and everyone. I went for the weekend and ended up staying for a week... Also, Joe and I have some sort of reconciliation going on, which I have to admit is really quite confusing. But whatever. He graduated from school and moved down here on my birthday, so I see him every once in a while.

So Pennsylvania was depressing, and I'm really glad to be back. What else is new....? I've been watching a lot of movies lately, so here are some that I recommend: Taxi, The Day After Tomorrow, Frida, Shaun of the Dead.

I've started just putting new photos in my Yahoo photo album, which you can see here. Also, this site is being redesigned, so if there are any problems, just deal with it. :)

-Johnny

From: After The Rain

So it's 2004 and I really don't have too much to show for it. My New Year's Eve was pretty dramatic, but I am not gonna get into that here, because everything turned out fine and by the end of the night, I was nice and fucked up.

This winter has been really bad, and it's really been getting me down. It stopped snowing for like, 2 days, but before that, it had snowed non-stop for a week and a half. And the temperatures have been hovering around zero. It's been driving me crazy.

So, on May 1st, I'm planning on moving to Tampa, with my friends Shane and Brenda. Not just because it's warm there, but because it's a decent city with several schools (because I would like to go back eventually), and jobs in my field. Also, I want to move to a place where I would like to stay for several years at least. I've moved so many times in the last 2 years that I would just like to settle in somewhere for a while.

So that's the plan at least... We'll see how 2004 treats me. :)

From: After The Rain

OK, So I'm getting some stuff done before I go out to celebrate Halloween. :)
I just added some new things on the writings page, as well as some new pictures that will be up shortly, I hope. That's it.

From: After The Rain

Things have NOT been going well... Joe and I broke up when he came back from his extended vacation in Florida, for reasons that I do not want to discuss here. Living with him now is so hard. I either want him to suffer, or I want to be the one to comfort him... There's no happy medium. So anyways, I'm moving out at the end of this month. Back home. woohoo... not...

I was planning on commuting to work every day so I could save up some money, but they told me today that they didn't have any more work for me... So that plan went to shit before it even started. ARGH!

In other news, my roommate David moved to Florida on the 4th, and I miss him so much. So I'm probably gonna visit him in Florida. It's gonna be an extended stay, and I'm gonna look for a job and an apartment. So I'm REALLY hoping that for once something will go right, and the change of scenery will make a difference... So wish me good luck. :)

From: After The Rain

I finally got a job! I know I know... It's about time. Actually, I got a job at Bed Bath & Beyond and started that on Monday. I hated it though. So on Tuesday, I was sitting in my car trying to get myself prepared to go back in there, but I just couldn't. The wierd part is that that day I got 4 calls about jobs, which was like, a record. So I didn't go back. Is it shady of me to still expect a paycheck from them? Probably, but I am so poor right now.

So a place I had worked for before called me and wanted me to come in to work. So that's what I did Wednesday through Friday. I like it there. It is Einhorn Design. Much better than BB&B... They are also considering me for a permanent position, which would be really nice. I also had some other interviews on Friday, which hopefully will come through. I decided that if I get multiple offers, I will have to be a total capitalist, and take the one that will pay me the most.

OMG, another exciting thing that happened recently... I went to D.C. on the 4th for the NFL kickoff show. It was pretty cool, although my friend, Walt and I had to wait in the rain, standing up, for a really long time. Oh, and we were also really far away from the stage. The front was all V.I.P. seating for military personnel, which I thought was kinda lame, especially since it was mostly empty. But I got to see Mary J. Blige, and Britney you-know-who. We saw Good Charlotte too, but I kinda tuned them out... We left after Britney, so we missed Aerosmith and Aretha Franklin, who I really would've liked to have seen. But we had been standing there crowded in like cattle for hours and enough was enough... It was cool though. I had fun, and that's what counts, right?

From: After The Rain

Ok, so on Tuesday, Joe and I got into a really big fight. Well, it wasn't really about anything. I think we were both just pissed off for no reason. But the outcome is the same... I need to move out. It's really sad for me to think of not being next to him when I wake up every morning. But we are still going to try to work on our relationship. I think that it will be good for both of us to not live together. But I'm not willing to give up just yet, I guess. I'm commenting this out so no one can read it because it's still kind of a sore spot for me... Maybe someday I will let the world see it. But for now, you'll have to view my html source. HAHAHA I'm devious.

From: After The Rain

OMG, I'm such a wreck. My lease is up at the end of September, and I have no idea what I'm gonna do. Joe, my boyfriend, and I have been through a lot. We've been together since November of 2001. I have no idea how he even feels about me anymore. I try so hard to get through to him, but nothing I try is good enough. We still have fun, and I still enjoy being around him alot, but things just aren't the same. I can't figure out whether I'm wasting my time on something that just isn't gonna work or what.

I guess I have several options, it's just the not knowing which one to choose that's getting to me. I could:
A) Sign another year lease here. This would mean another year with Joe, which would be fine if I had some kind of guaruntee, but that's not the way life works. If something were to happen, I'd have no place to live, and that is no fun at all, trust me, I know.
B) Stay in Pittsburgh in the hopes that I can find a good job and be able to afford my own place. This way I could still be near Joe, but I'm not sure he'd still want to talk to me even... I don't really know that many other people in Pittsburgh, my social life is kinda limited right now, for reasons that don't make a whole lot of sense.
C) Move back home with my mom for a time while I get my life together and save up money to move somewhere I really want to live. This is probably the hardest one, but what I think I should probably do. I don't want to move back to Meadville, because it's really small, and I would be so limited as to what I could do there. And I don't want to end up commuting to Pittsburgh from there.

I just don't know what I'm gonna do. I guess I have some time to think about it. I would like to talk to Joe, but he's not too receptive of that. Most of the time, I feel like I'm talking at him rather than to him... I do love you Joe, if you read this.

Well, that's it for now, I hope the next time I write on here, I'll have something more positive to say... Wouldn't that be nice.

From: After The Rain

Well, a lot has gone on since I last wrote here. I moved, and now I'm going to be moving again next week- to the place that I just moved out of... Long story...

Anyways, I have a car now, and I'm looking for a real job... The place I work now is starting to get on my nerves... lol I haven't had access to the Internet for the majority of this month. I went through withdrawl. ;-)

From: After The Rain (http://geocities.com/johnny_g0017/old.html)

This was my first website and I felt sentimental about about taking it down. So I decided to keep it as a personal site. I know no one visits this page, but maybe I can change that...

I'm graduating from the Art Institute next week. I'm so excited! I have been going crazy lately.

I will be getting a car at the beginning of next month, so I'll probably be in Meadville at some point. It would be nice to visit with some friends that I haven't seen in a while.

Well, I hope to hear from all of you soon.

Love,

Johnny