Here I Am

It is Friday. This week flew by. Which is a good thing, I suppose. I don't really have much planned for the weekend, however... I think I'm just going to have a relaxing weekend at home. I'm going to Miami next weekend, so I can't really beat that...

Last night, I entertained myself by taking about 75 pictures with my digital camera (the old one, I still haven't gotten the one from ebay :( ). The pictures were of Shane and I. Then I imported them, cropped and edited them. It was fun, and it took a good portion of the evening. Then, I uploaded them all to the photo gallery, which has a sizable amount of photos now. I also tweaked some of the gallery settings, added ads, and set up an account for Shane.

Anyways, if you want to see them, do so here.

So, it was a full moon yesterday. I didn't escape the normal craziness that ensues when that happens. Well, Jiganesh was leaving for a wedding today, so he couldn't come over to help us pick out accomodations for Miami. Expedia was down for a long time (full moon, i'm convinced), so I ended up having to use Travelocity, which was driving me crazy. I picked out a hotel, which was the second furthest one away from the Bicentennial Park. The room was about $150. Went through the whole process of setting up an account, entering credit card information, and then what happens... It takes me to a page that says, sorry, that room is no longer available, please select another.

So I was all pissed off and frustrated, and then realized that the selections available were for the closest hotel, the Radisson, for way less. The rooms were originally $189, but they have a 'government rate,' which I called and asked about. So apparently, I am eligible for this rate. $108 for a room with a view of the bay. We'll see how this turns out, I guess. But anyways, we have reservations, so that's one less thing I have to take care of.

So then, for some reason, I felt like going out. I needed to buy cigarettes, so I dragged Shane along with me as we went to the gas station and then to the Male Room. Walter had said on Sunday, specifically, Will you come over on Wednesday. He didn't have to work. So I tried to call him... Text messages, the whole works. To no avail. So whatever... Cengiz came and hung out after he got out of work with his roommate.

So, it's Tuesday. Yay. Last week went by really fast, and I have a feeling this week will as well. I went out on Thursday evening with Mike and Shane. I had an OK time. I drank too many long islands. Danced, had a good time, etc... We drove back home, and driving up the street (note: I wasn't driving anywhere...) I saw a Jack Russell running in the street, so I screamed to stop the car, got out, got this dog, and Shane and I took it to the house. It was soooooo cute. But stinky. So Shane and I showered it off in the outside shower and dried it off.

It still stank after that. At that point, I was drunk, and kind of over it. It went under the house, and I didn't see it again.

Shane had to work on Friday. I felt bad for him. I spent the day mostly in bed, watching CNN with the covers pulled over my head. lol. I finally decided I needed to motivate myself, and picked Shane up from work and went to the mall. Got a haircut, and bought a present for Cat's Wedding.

Jiganesh called me at some point and asked if I wanted to go out. I did. He came and picked up Shane and I. We went to City Side for a little bit, which was fun, but not what I was in the mood for. Then we went to Chamber's, and got there a little late, but it was cool.

So, Confessions on a Dance Floor officially came out today. Well, according to some people, at 2:30 AM last night. I've already had the full album for a couple weeks, so I didn't bother to download my pre-ordered copy from iTunes yet. I'll do that on my lunch break. I can't wait to see what the reviews will be like for the new album...

Oh my, I just had to mention this real quick:

Well, it's Thursday, which is my Friday, since we have tomorrow off. Yay for Veteran's Day. Well, I've pretty much been in a fog lately, literally. Oh well though. It feels like I'm waiting for something to happen. Dunno what, I guess I'll know when it happens.

I'm home on my lunch break, sending Felix a copy of the Madonna CD. He's in Ft. Sill, OK now. They brought him back from Korea and haven't told him what his next assignment will be. Which isn't very good news, cuz he only has until April 1st (yes, April Fool's Day).

Last night was the indian new year, so we were celebrating that, as well as the fact that Jiganesh has a new car. He picked Shane and I up around 9 and we went to Chambers. We were gonna try to get in for free, but we actually had to pay the cover anyways. So we were there super early...

Shane and I got drinks from David, who, as soon as he saw us, was like, "You guys are gonna get drunk tonight." He definitely fulfilled that promise with Grey Goose and a splash of vodka. I love it when my drinks are barely pink... ;) Um, so yeah, we hung out at the downstairs stage and hoarded some chairs in anticipation of the show. After the downstairs show is when my memory starts getting a little foggy.

Now, I used to drink a lot when I was younger. In high school, actually. And I would drink copious amounts of vodka. Cheap vodka. So I have blacked out many times. It has been a while though. It kinda scared me though this time.

Through eyewitness accounts, I've derived a version of what happened after the second drag show. At some point, I was dancing, and then Cengiz was dancing with me. I was also dancing with some other boy. OK, dancing with Cengiz and making out with a boy behind him over his shoulder. After I heard about this, I kind of remember just that part, like it was a dream though... Did I really do that. I guess so.

Yay, it's Friday. Didn't go out last night. Wasn't in the mood. See what I've been talking about...

Anyways, so, just had a little work party. They're fun. :)

I'm listening to the Madonna CD. I'm absolutely in love with it. It's very intense, at times sounding like ATB, then it switches to new age disco. I dunno, I'm just all about it. It doesn't come out for another 2 weeks though, so I definitely have time to play it out before everyone else hears it, which is usually how it goes for me.

Oh, I wanted to write about something that happened at the Halloween party on Saturday. I forgot to mention it at all. So, our neighbor came over and offered to give us and our guests readings. She is wiccan, and brought with her these wooden sticks with carvings on them. So a couple people went, and they were all into their readings. Then, it was this guy, Brian's turn. Molly told him that she wasn't even going to use the sticks, so she just broke it down to him. After it was done, Brian was like, 'Can I talk to you?' They went inside and talked for quite a while, actually. I don't know what about. But, after that, Brian, hardly said two words for the rest of the night. It was very odd. All of us speculated as to what they had talked about.

You know what really sucks...? Waiting....

I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen, I just don't know what yet. I guess this feeling springs from dissatisfaction, but why now, I don't know. I'm just not really sure what I'm doing, and where I'm gonna be, say, a year from now...

I think, and it's hard for me to even say this... what it boils down to is that I'm lonely. I'm tired of being alone. There, I said it. This doesn't mean I'm gonna run out and attach myself to the next available boy, I'm just stating a fact. It drives me crazy when people define themselves and their happiness by being in a relationship. I've met people who, after meeting them for the first time, wanted to start dating me... OK, I guess there's nothing wrong with that, just like to actually know something about someone before jumping into a relationship.

Honestly, I sometimes think that I'm just too damn picky.

After work yesterday, I picked up my car. I just love writing checks for things I can't see. Well, I guess I could see it, but I'd have to get on the ground, and, well... yeah... new catalytic converter...

So my car is running well now, actually, I think a little bit quieter than before, which is good. I came home and called Walter, talked to him for a bit. Toby was having a birthday party starting at 8. Mike was going to it and for a while thought that I wanted to go with him. I was debating on whether to go or not. But... Toby dissed me on my birthday (thanks Shane for reminding me of that one), and also did not come to our Halloween party. So Shane got home early from work, well, not really early, he just got a ride from a coworker that shaved off an hour of travel time for him on the bus.

I don't know why, but I got all dressed up. I just felt like looking nice, I guess. I wore CK jeans, a red silk dress shirt, and a grey blazer, with a three holed belt. It was cute. I should've taken pictures. lol.

I don't understand why a certain person would not speak to me for months, and then i find out that they read my blog on a daily basis.

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Well, it was an interesting weekend, not necessarily in a good way though. On Friday, I intended to go do the normal payday routine. I needed some things, wanted to get a haircut, wanted to get supplies for the pending Halloween Party. I picked up Shane and we went to the mall. We walked all the way through the mall to Hollister (I wanted a hoodie) only for me to realize that I had left my plastic in the car. So I walked all the way back out to the car, at which point, I was over it. I said something about maybe it was a sign that I shouldn't have bought anything... It was. And then, as we're driving down 19, I thought my car was sounding a little loud. Shane said it was just because the windows were down.

I wanted to go to Target, but didn't want to backtrack, as it was getting late, and I had big plans for the night, so I settled on Wal*Mart. On the way there, in the middle lane of 19, at a stop light, I put my foot on the gas, and my catalytic converter came loose. Thankfully, it was still attached, so I didn't have to get out. It was already embarassing enough. My car was hella loud and Shane was laughing. I wasn't amused. Until this lady in her own hoopdy, pulled up beside me, pointing, saying I was dragging, and then she yelled, 'get a coat hanger!', which had me crackin' up.