Argh, I am so tired today. I haven't written anything on here in a while. I have been busy, and a lot has been going on... Well, I had a strange weekend last week. I came home on Friday and tried to take a nap. I slept until midnight. At some point Matt and I were talking on the phone. He was saying every mean thing he could to make me mad at him. I kinda figured it out and asked him if he was doing it on purpose so I would cut ties with him. He was. We talked for a long time, and then he came over really late and stayed the night. He stayed here for most of Saturday too, but went home in the evening. It was really nice having him here, I miss him.
After Matt left I got ready to go out, a friend wanted to go out to Alibi, so I did. I had an alright time, and then when I went to leave, this guy ran up behind me in the parking lot, introduced himself, and asked if I wanted to hang out. Liking the attention, I said yes, and we went to his apartment. We were up until about 10 the next morning talking and hanging out, listening to music and drinking. It was a good time. Kinda strange, but alright. We didn't fool around, which was different, but in a good way. Matthew seemed like a cool guy at the time. He called me quite a bit over the last week.
On Sunday, I went over to this guy's house in Tampa to hang out, I thought... He was really quiet and we didn't do anything other than watch TV. I drank a beer or two. And so yeah, this kid, who didn't say hardly two words for the whole time I was there, just busted out with, So, do you wanna play around? It was tempting, yes, but I kinda ignored the question in the politest manor I could. At that point, for reasons I don't want to mention online, I think I was still incapable of having sex, and didn't want to put myself in a situation more akward than the one I was already in...
Last week went by really Really SLOW... I was glad when it was over, and wanted to go out on Friday. I ended up being indecisive and driving over to Loft only to decide I didn't really want to go there, so I drove back home. When I got home, Justin called to see what I was up to... One of the reasons I left my house in the first place was that I saw a spider in the kitchen the size of my fist. I'm not kidding, it was the most horrifying experience of my life. So I was talking to Justin outside in the driveway in my car with the windows rolled up and the doors locked.
So I decided to go see Justin's new house in Largo. It was pretty cute. I couldn't buy any beer because it was after midnight and there is some law or something I didn't know about. So we just both took vicodin and really, that was better than beer. HAHA. We watched American Dad and AbFab and went to sleep. I don't know really what is going on with that boy. I'm beyond wanting to be anything but friends with him, but he has a boyfriend, or so he has told me. For someone who has a boyfriend, he sure doesn't mind cuddling. But whatever, it was nice to have someone to cuddle up next to while I slept... until 5PM. :(
I went home and watched a movie on Saturday. I decided to go out to Alibi, so I showed up there around 11. I wasn't having fun at first, cuz I didn't have anyone to talk to. This one kid came up to me and said his friend thought I was really cute and would I say hello to his friend. I said no, in my typical snobbish manor. Then this kid kept saying, "He's Colombian," and he was saying it really wierd, and I thought it was funny and started laughing at him. So eventually I decided to dance. I was on my way to the dance floor and this kid I talk to online grabbed me and said hello, he was like, "I know you..." Yeah, you sent me pictures of your dick online. So I danced for a while and was dripping sweat. This guy started dancing with me, Toby. We talked for a little bit and then danced some more. It was a good time. Oh, and at some point, Justin had text messaged me and asked if I wanted to come over and cuddle. So when I left Alibi, that's where I went, once again, I'd like to reiterate, I don't know what is going on with that boy. But we cuddled and slept.
Woke up Sunday, came home, watched a movie, showered, talked on the phone, called Toby, who was at Suncoast. So I went there. It was the earliest I'd ever been there, it was still daylight... And it was packed... I actually had a good time at Suncoast, go figure. The people Toby drove with left, so he went with them about an hour after I got there. So I hung out with his friend Rick for a little bit. He's an interesting guy. He gave me his card and told me to check out his website. So I think I might be doing some banner ads for his site, which is cool. Then Rick left and I was hanging out for a little bit by myself. This Brazillian guy, Marlo, who doesn't look brazillian, he's fair skinned and blonde, started talking to me, he kissed me a couple times at Suncoast. Then he left, I finished up my beer and left for Alibi.
I got to Alibi and it was kinda empty. OK, really empty. So I had a beer and talked to my favorite bartender. Then I saw Marlo and started talking to him. We danced for a while, but then he said he felt dizzy and wanted to sit down or something. I asked him if he wanted me to come with him, but he said, no stay here. So I did. I didn't see him again that night. So this kid, Jason, who, when I was hanging out with Chad for that minute a while ago, Chad kept telling me that he thought I was hot, whatever, he's kinda dumb, but I talk to him anyways. He started dancing with me, and his friend came over with him. This guy was dancing next to me, and he kept complimenting me, and talking to me, and I don't think I stopped smiling the whole time... He is so cute. His name is Marvin... We exchanged numbers and then I left, cuz it was almost midnight.
So this is the part where Toby reached over and grabbed my stomach, apparently, as I was leaving. I didn't notice. I got home and gave him a call cuz he told me to call him later. He asked me if I was still there, and I was kinda disappointed that I missed him. And then I was like, Oh, he totally saw me flirting with and kissing that boy. Scandal.
Anyways, we talked for a minute and then I went and laid down. Well, I called him and invited him overa little bit later on... Yeah, so much for getting sleep on a work night. He came over and kept me busy for a while. ;) And very nearly caused me to be late this morning in the best possible way. Haha.
~Peace
