OK, what am I looking for, what is the meaning of life, etc.
I'm gonna lay it down real quick. What I want: to live my life. I don't want anyone in my life telling me who to talk to, when to go out, where to go, what to do, etc. I want to meet people who are in touch with reality, people who have jobs, know what's going on in the world, etc.
I'd like to meet a boy, but you know what, I'm really not too concerned about meeting just one right now. I would love to meet someone who would add to my life, rather than detract from it and limit me (see above). But I haven't yet.
In the words of someone, 'There are so many things that have to happen for two people to meet. Relationships are so complex.' They are, but on some level, I don't want complication, which I suppose, is why I'm not looking for a boy. I'd like something simple, someone who doesn't need to know where I'm at every minute, someone who just enjoys being around me. And that can't be forced.
Most of the people I've met in recent months instantly want to spend way too much time with me, and it's like they are looking for something to make them complete. That's not me. I'm not the perfect piece in your imperfect puzzle, you'll be disappointed.
Another thing that creeps me out, is when people describe being in love with synonyms of insanity... EG: Crazy about you, We're madly in love... ETC. Is love just some sort of focused insanity? Do we become so involved with a person that we become blind to their failings, and thus, who they really are? Are we just seeing what we want to see? I suppose love is a lie we tell ourselves. Hmm... That's kinda tragic...

Anyways, I've gotta make some phone calls.

Peace.

If I had to do it all again,
I wouldn't take away the rain
Cuz I know it made me who I am.

~Faith Evans (Again)

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