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Britney Spears guide to Semiconductor Physics

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So, I couldn't sleep at all on Sunday night. I don't know why, I just tossed and turned, and I guess I've been kind of anxious about a lot of things lately. I was literally still awake when Shane's alarm clock went off next door... at 5 am.

So I ended up falling asleep only to wake up about a half hour later and dozily composed an email to work saying I would not be coming in. So my Monday was spent getting some rest. I woke up and cleaned a little bit, as well as sat on the computer. Then, at 6ish, I decided I wanted to go to Target for some things, so I picked up Shane first, and we went to Target.

Now... I have been looking for a set of cocktail glasses for a while. However, I had a very specific idea of what I wanted. Not the wide, shallow ones that I found everywhere. I wanted something more compact and deep. So, I have looked everywhere with no luck. They had a set at Z-Gallery at the International Mall, that was exactly the shape I wanted, but there were 4 different colored glasses, for $20. I thought they were tacky. So, at Target, passively browsing the kitchenware aisles, Shane found a set off 8 on the half off shelf. He made me look at them, and they were PERFECT! So I bought them for $5 and bought a cocktail shaker for $20.

I got some other things also, a hat, socks, underwear. Then I had to go to American Spirits, and bought vodka and apple schnapps for an appletini. Now, when I was at Martini Bar recently, they served our Martini's in the stemless glass I have pictured here. For some reason I noticed that all the men at the bar had this glass while all the women had the traditional stemmed glass. So, now, my new thing is to get a set of these, which shouldn't be too hard, since I already found an internet retailer while searching for a picture. :)

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1999- The best ever. Started out hanging out at the usual late night spot- Dunkin Donuts. Smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee with my friends. Erika, Tiffany, Grady, Luke, and Tom. Someone got the bright idea to take off to Pittsburgh to hang out at Matt Rappa's. So, Luke, I believe, called this girl, Sherry, to see if she would drive us. So she came and picked us up. Luke and Erika ended up not going. Hung out in Pittsburgh, drank beer for the first time, walked around empty ass downtown the next morning, the 14th. It was a Sunday. I have great digital pictures somewhere, or maybe just the old black and white print outs. It was a long time ago.

2000- Hung out with this guy, Ronny, non-stop. During school, after school, weekends, sat in his car every day during our lunch break and smoked cigarettes. Valentine's day was a Monday and Ronny showed up at my house early. For some reason we didn't have school. Snow day, maybe... We drove around in his mom's van, listened to Tori Amos (his music selection, not mine), picked up Marie. Hung out at the college, I believe. Ronny was straight, that didn't stop him from asking me if he could kiss me, and becoming my first that Friday.

2001- Shane and I took a greyhound bus to Columbus to stay with Erika for a couple days. Went to a CRAZY house party, stumbled back to her house all lost and, well, in the ghetto. Went to some bar that was absolutely packed, drank even though I was only 18... Ran into this guy, Scotty, who used to live in a converted ladder warehouse where my friends and I stayed in 1999 during the More Than Music fest (during my punk rock phase). Scotty wasn't looking very punk rock, and I found out he was gay. :)

2002- Valentine's day with Joe. I worked at Hallmark in Station Square at the time, so he got presents and cards filled with heart shaped confetti that scattered throughout my apartment, and that I randomly find, to this day. I don't remember what, if anything, he got me.

2003- I had broken up with Joe on the 10th after finding out he had cheated on me within the first month of us dating, but mostly for not telling me himself. We still lived together, trying to work things out, ya know. I had to work on Valentine's day. After work I called him, no answer. I walked home and went to sleep wondering where he was.

2004- I was with John at the time, I don't remember what we actually did on Valentine's day... He had to work, maybe dinner or breakfast... He was big on breakfast, as he worked third shift. Before Valentine's though, he had gotten me this big stuffed bear holding a heart that said 'be mine' or something. I was like, Are you serious?! I resisted the tempation to throw it away and I believe I gave it to Natalie's daughter...?

2005- Matt picked me up from work with a dozen roses, stinky cologne. I didn't realize until afterwards that it was such a special thing for him. His first Valentine's with a boyfriend. We went to dinner at Chili's, I believe. I could've done without the presents, without the flowers, but I was glad to have spent it with Matt.

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Sundays are always so blah. I guess it's mostly cuz I know my weekend is winding down. I'm not really ready for my weekend to be over yet.

I went out to Chambers on Friday night. Cengiz really wanted me to go, but left shortly after I got there. Well, I only remember getting two drinks from David. I looked at the second one and it wasn't pink at all, which is probably why it's the last one I remember getting. Shane told me I had at least 4 or five; he was also driving, btw...

Friday night was interesting. For those of you who don't know me, interesting is my catch all word for good, bad and in between. Friday night was definitely interesting. Or maybe interesting describes something that's not worth further description... Hmmm, I'll have to think about that one.

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So, Dinner last night was great. I drove Mike and I downtown and we met up with Teri (the birthday girl), her husband, Brian, and Cat. We had bruschetta and hummuss for apetizers and then I got this fabulous chicken pasta dish. OMG, it was sooo good. I ate the leftovers for lunch today. Yumm. We had tiramasu for desert, with coffee. I had an Appletini with dinner also, I think I'm gonna start ordering martini's more often. lol. I dressed up too, I looked really nice in my blue shirt and blazer. :)

So Teri's 35th birthday dinner went well. Then, Mike and I ran home to put leftovers in the fridge. Cat did the same, and said she was going to stay at home, she didn't bring her husband to dinner. We planned on meeting up at The Garden at 10 for drinks. We made Shane drive us there, so we would have a DD for the evening. Thanks Shane! So I had about 4 drinks at the Garden, and was surprised to see my bill when we left was only $4.25. The bartender got a good tip, his name was Stacy. :) The Garden was a really nice bar too. There was hardly anyone there though, and the music was too loud for such a small crowd.

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This week has been kinda boring. I really haven't felt like doing much, but I'm feeling better today. I'm going to dinner at Bella Brava tonight for a coworkers birthday. I'd never really heard of it, but it comes highly recommended, so it should be fun. So, I'm gonna go home, clean up my living area a little bit, and get ready for that.

I finally got the hold taken off of my account. Martini Bar had authorized my card for $216 rather than $21.60, so I couldn't use my debit card for fear of fucking my account up any further. But, after about 5 days, it's alright again. So that's a plus.

Also, *gasp* I think I actually have a date this weekend. This boy from MySpace who lives in Seminole was talking to me online, and said he wanted to meet. He seems pretty cool and down to earth. So we're gonna do something on Saturday. Argh, I'm always so nervous when I meet new people.

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I have to admit I've been bummed out lately. I haven't felt like doing much, and haven't really gotten anything accomplished. A large part of it is stress. I've been worried about my sister, and now I'm worried about my mom also. And my car, and money...

I've also been missing Matt a lot lately. I wish he wouldn't have talked to me, he could've just continued to hide from me, and I think it would've been better. Now, for some reason, he's mad at me again, and I'm stuck wondering what I did. Nothing really, I guess it doesn't matter anyways if he's not going to talk to me. But still I miss him. Part of me wishes he would talk to me, and that he wasn't so angry at me. I don't really understand why he's even mad at me anymore. The last time I spoke to him on the phone was right after Bob died. I was kind of upset that he called to give Mike his condolences, and didn't wish me a Happy Birthday. My birthday was 3 days after Bob passed away... And before that it had been months since I heard from him. What could I have possibly have done to him in the time that we weren't even speaking...

 

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I think I'll just have to accept the fact that he never cared. It's a new year and I should stop wasting my time... :(