Here I Am

Current mood: pensive

It has been so long since I've posted on here, I don't even know where to start. Um... Well, work is going well, I have a boyfriend now, my friend Walter from Pittsburgh is moving down here, and my car is fucked up.

Yeah, I am hoping to get a promotion at work within the next week or so. I'm keeping my fingers crossed, but more on that later. I don't want to jinx myself.

I got a new cell phone, it's fabulous... I was so tired of my other one, I'm so glad I don't have to be seen in public with that thing anymore. Yeah, it was that bad. Consequently, after getting the new phone, my first flip phone, btw, I was attached to it 24/7 for several days, and I'm quite scared of seeing my phone bill. I'm pretty sure it's gonna be like that commercial where the phone bill breaks the dining room table... Ouch.

OK, so Matt, my boyfriend. How'd that happen? Well, we met at Starbucks, and that was a month ago tomorrow. We've only been dating for a couple weeks though. Matt is super sweet and funny and oh yeah, hot... LOL. Hi Matt! He's coming over later after he gets off work.
Matt lives in North Tampa, so it's a little far, but up until this point that hasn't really been an issue.

Last Thursday, on my way to work, I put my foot on the brake, and it went all the way to the floor. I lost almost all brake pressure. I drove like an elderly person the rest of the way to work. I was only a couple blocks away, so that's a good thing.
I took my car to a garage last night, and the guy called me at work this morning at 8:30 and told me it was gonna be at least a grand to fix it. There are some other problems going on as well, but that is just so overwhelming. I just got my Florida plates and license plate and switched over my insurance, which, let me tell ya, is not cheap. And now my car is undrivable. ARGH. Such is life... I need a cigarette.

Ah, much better now. I really should write in this thing more often...

So yeah, Walter is coming down to live in Tampa. He will be here on Sunday. I'm so excited, I can't wait to see him.

OK, that's it for now. I'm gonna go eat something now. :)

Currently listening: L'Amour Toujours By Gigi D'Agostino Release date: By 21 August, 2001

9:01 PM

Current mood: apathetic

So I had a good 3rd day at work. I got to learn some new things, which is always fun.

On my lunch break, I talked to my friend David. He had today off of work and he said to call him after I was home. So I called him after I had been home for about an hour, and all night, it's been, come over, oh no, don't come over, i'm busy, ok, i'm not doing that now, i'll be home, oh, i'm going out now. So I'm finally around 9:30 I just told him that if he didn't say he would be home and that I should leave, it would be too late, and not to call me back. So he said he was gonna be out, but that he'd give me a call tomorrow. OK, this is the 3rd day in a row that he has done the same shit to me.

I can't do anything tomorrow night cuz I have to work at 6:30 AM. So whatever, I don't really want to hang out in some dive bar and drink beer or go to his house and smoke pot, so it's not really that big of a loss. It just bothers me. I guess cuz David and I used to be pretty close. I've known him for 3 and a half years now. Anyways, so he said he'd call me on Friday to do something. Either, A) He will "forget" to call me. B) I'll find something better to do or someone else to hang out with, or both.

I'm actually really excited about this weekend. It's my first weekend since I've started working again, so that's kinda cool. Also, I'm gonna have a little bit of money that I won't have to be all frugal with cuz I have a steady paycheck now. So it'll be fun. Since I go into work early on Friday, I get out early, which will be nice. I think I'll probably go to Chambers just for the hell of it. I went last week, but I went so late, and was already pretty drunk by the time I got there. Also, I saw an ex there, and he had to come up and say hello and give me and my roommate hugs. Honestly, I'd be happier if he pretended he didn't know who I was or that he didn't see me or something.

So yeah, this week has been good as far as work goes, but I'm still adjusting to staying home on weeknights. I'm used to going out whenever I felt like it and staying out as late as I want. Blah...
Anyways, I need to run to the store to get some smokes. If anyone wants to hang out this weekend, I'm down. Write me.
Later,
Johnny

1:40 AM

Current mood: restless

OK, so can I just rant here for a second... I think I need to stop worrying about other people's problems and take care of myself for a minute. I take so much time and energy and devote it to what other people, friends and lovers, need, that I just don't feel like I have any left for me. Blah. I don't want to be like, the convenient friend that people hang out with when their other friends diss them. Cuz when I'm feeling down, they're too busy.
So I think I'm done with all my one sided relationships.
Believe it or not, my day actually went pretty well up until a certain point, and then it all went to shit. But yeah, I'm tired now, so I'm gonna have a smoke and head to bed. Goodnight everyone.

2:34 AM

Current mood: accomplished

OK, so I had a crazy weekend... Actually, it seemed like my weekend kinda started on Wednesday night. I went to a friends house and drank beer and watched Ab Fab and Shrek 2. I had lots of fun, and think I have a slight crush.
So on Thursday morning, I drove over to David's Dad's house where we were having thanksgiving dinner. David's Dad was out of town, so David didn't buy the turkey until that morning. A frozen turkey... So it took us a while to figure out how to cook the damn thing. But David, Joe, Jay and I drank coffee and switched over to wine at some point. I convinced David to swim in the pool with me, the water was freezing, but it was fun. We ate around 9PM. I called my Mom and wished her a Happy Thanksgiving at some point, trying not to sound too drunk. People stopped by periodically throughout the day, and I ended up getting a lot of pictures on my digital camera, which I'll end up putting in my Yahoo! photo album eventually.
I kinda slept in late on Friday. David had gone to work at 9:30. Joe and Jay had to wait for me to get myself up and motivated so they could go home cuz they had drove there with David. We dropped Joe off and then Jay and I went to International Mall for several hours. It was crazy busy, but kinda fun. They had some store that I had never seen before that didn't have a name anywhere that I could see. It was dark inside and consisted of lots of hallways and little rooms with clothes in them, and lots of mirrors everywhere. Very confusing...
But yeah, dropped Jay off at his house in St. Pete and came home for the first time in days to eat Thanksgiving dinner with my roommate Mike's family at my house. After eating, I kinda hibernated in my room and took a shower. Mike asked me if I wanted to go out, and if I would drive. I said sure. So Mike, his friend, Tim, from Minneapolis, and me went to the Male Room, City Side and then ended up at Chambers.
Saturday morning, I drove Tim to his grandparent's house in Bradenton, where he was staying. We went to Anna Maria Island and walked on the beach for a while, and then went to a little restaurant on the beach and had a fabulous appetizer and drank Coronas. It was fabulous. Later on in the day, we ate at St. Armand's Circle, and were trying to figure out what the bar in Sarasota was called and where it was. Our bartender was chatting with us, and we told him that we had been at Chambers, City Side and the Male Room the previous night, and he knew exactly what we were talking about. So he gave us directions to Tri-Angle, and we actually saw him there a little bit after we got there.
Tri-Angle was kinda lame, but I guess fun in its own way. I had a problem with some of the older men there trying to talk to me and get all in my personal space, which is never fun. So Tim and I left the bar and went to Lido beach for a little bit, were almost arrested, and then drove home.
So yeah, today I started my job. Yay. It's not too exciting right now, cuz I'm just trying to learn all this new stuff, but I like it. I need to get some stuff for my office though. It's so empty. I have a desk, 3 chairs, and 2 tables... That's it!!! So if anyone out there paints, you should give me something cool to hang on my walls. I want to get some plants and some random fabulous things to spice it up a bit. I have a 3rd floor view of the parking lot, some buildings, some trees and I think I can even see the lake in the distance...
Well, you know what, that's a long entry, so I guess I'll wrap it up.

Currently listening: Merry Christmas By Mariah Carey Release date: By 01 November, 1994

11:42 PM

Current mood: restless

Yay, so this is my first post on this thing. I'm listening to some fabulous music. I spent the majority of my day today downloading music and videos. I fell in love with the new Lindsay Lohan video for Rumours, so I got the song, but couldn't find the video. I also got the Gwen Stefani song, What Are You Waiting For, as well as a couple remixes. What else... Oh yeah, a Buffy episode from Season 2. I've also been searching in vain for a version of "You Were Always On My Mind" that I heard at Alibi, but no dice. So if anyone has it, lemme know.
So I've spent the majority of my day vegetating, and now I'm bored and think I'm gonna go out with David for a drink or two over in Tampa.


This is a random rant that I wrote earlier on my website: After The Rain
You can read it in its entirety there...

Anyways, work: I was working valet for this guy who didn't pay me any hourly wage and screwed me over several times in a row with crappy jobs where I didn't make any money. So I started working for a valet company that managed parking for the Marriott Waterside in Tampa. I guess it is the only four star hotel in Tampa, but unfortunately, that doesn't mean that people who stay there tip any better. Yeah, but that job sucked because I was only getting paid $2 an hour for 9 hour days, and it was obvious after a couple days that it was totally not worth my even being there. But I wanted to hang onto that job until I got something else, just because I didn't want to be completely broke, and even though it wasn't much, I would at least have enough money to eat and put gas in my car on the days that I worked. Unfortunately, I ended up spraining my knee one night at work. My leg had been getting progressively more and more sore throughout the week, but the last night, it was terrible. So I haven't been working there for about a week.

Last week though, I got a call about an interview that I had been on with a Florida state agency. I got the job and I'm starting on the 29th, which is less than a week away now, but it's driving me crazy not having anything to do in the meantime. I don't want to spend money I don't really have, so I end up sitting at home all day until boredom sets in. But I'm excited about starting this job, I'm gonna have my own office, and work with cool people, and get paid quite well. :)

So Thanksgiving is Thursday, and it's kinda wierd, cuz I won't be able to go home or be with my family. Thanksgiving isn't a major holiday for me, so I'm not too concerned, but I guess it's gonna be a practice run for Christmas, because I won't get my first real paycheck until right before Christmas and I'll have to spend it on other things this year. I won't be able to get a plane ticket. But right now, I think I'm planning on visiting in the spring. I don't know how it's gonna work, but I'll probably go up for some holiday and spend a couple days in Pittsburgh and a couple in Meadville. That's the plan at least.

Currently listening: Rumours By Lindsay Lohan Release date: By 29 November, 2004

12:48 AM